WARNING : You MAY see some grammatic error along your way through this post.
This post create specially to remind myself about my purpose to study.Just as a motivator for myself to put more effort on my study since final exams is just around the corner.I really really need dua’as from the readers.Hope you gain something here too even its all about me.InsyaAllah
I want to be a doctor.
That’s my ambition since I was small.
When my teacher ask me what did I want to be?
I’ll put Doctor for my first choice.
When abah and ummi ask me what did I want to be in the future,
I say,”I want to be a doctor.”
“Coz I wan’t to helps people”
Then I saw their big grinned.
Im happy as long as they happy.
Then its time for me to go to the secondary school.Lower secondary then upper secondary.I start learned about human body.About nature.More advance topics i mean.But guess what,Im not really good at that thinggy.I didn’t score well in my Biology subject (not getting grade A) plus I didn’t really pay my attention to this subject during the class.(Sorry Madam Voo!)But still I want to be a doctor.
But then someone told me this,
“Medicine is only for genius.Only genius people can be a doctor.”
So that statement makes me down a little bit coz I know Im not genius.Im not good at Biology and that people who told that is one of most respectful people in my list.But owh no maybe he said,
“Most of the doctors are genius.”
Then here it cames matric life.I still remember when its time to choose the major area either you want to be place in Physical Science or Biological Science.I tick Biological Science of course!With confident.Coz I want to be a doctor.You know that right?
But that only last for less than a minute.I call ummi,and ask her opinion.And then she came with this words,
“Its up to you actually.If you think you can cope up with Biology subject then proceed.But if not,we don’t really matter if you are a doctor or not as long as you happy and try to do your best in your study and life.”
I knew she and abah really hopes that I can be a doctor.And I want too.But is there any other way that I can be a doctor without taking biology?Of course not!
But that’s only what Im thinking.For my lecturer..there is a way!
Just before that someone ask the lecturer whether we can take Medicine or Dentistry if we are in the Physical Science class.And then she goes,
“Of course!As long as you manage to get 4 flat for every sem,you can take any courses that you like!”
So without doubt and with reciting basmalah I changed my choice.Tick the Physical Science box.And submit it.Alhamdulillah.
Times go on.First semester exams came and got the result.Alhamdulillah 4 flat.More closer to become a doctor isn’t it?But its really funny when Im not dare enough to put Medicine as my first choice during the time we have to fill up the application forms for the First Degree.I put Maths with Education instead.For all the top 4!Lolz!
And now it turns out that I don’t be able to be a doctor anymore.Since Im taking straight maths and InsyaAllah I choose to be a teacher.Teaching is not bad at all,isn’t it?
Well Allah knows better.Sometime when we didn’t got what we want to,we should bare in mind that Allah has better planing for us (Quran,2:216).And He will not leave burden on us that we can’t cope with (Quran,2:286).That’s what I believe.
But why Maths?Medicine to Maths?
InsyaAllah will continue in the next part.May Allah helps me.
Ya muqallibal qulub,thabit qulub ala deenik.